When I returned home for the first time in a while, my father's new partner, Megu, was there. She is only one year older than me. I was traumatized by my relationship with her mother, and she said, ``I can't leave you alone. She seems lonely.'' She kissed me softly. The two of them pressed their lips together over and over again, as if to make sure, to fill their loneliness. Exchange saliva and repeat the sticky tongue